I know who I am.

 I know who I am. I can say that with certainty. I have been silent on this blog since January and now want to share some of what I have been thinking.

I've been through a lot these past two years. Some may say its nothing, but to me it was a lot. The main theme was DOUBT, more specifically self-doubt. Since about age 12, I may have been one of the most insecure people someone could meet. Now I am 23 and am definitely  no longer that way. I feel stronger and happier than I ever have. It doesn't always show because I have been under a lot of stress, but its true. No matter what happens I know that there are people I can rely on and that things will ultimately get better.

I guess my main point on this blog is to say to myself and everyone that I am 100% over the past. All the moments I was upset, angry, frustrated, disappointed, hurt, depressed are fading away. All the people who I felt hurt me or put me down are forgiven. I know my encounters with them served to make me a stronger, wiser, more patient and more understanding person. Yesterday, I taught the kids at my job that "You can never understand someone unless you walk a mile in their shoes." Maybe every heartache I went through was just the result of a misunderstanding. People not being able to fully recognize what the other was going through. We are human. It happens. I learned from everyone and hope they learned something from me. I've learned that to hold a grudge means to continue holding on to the negativity those situations brought. Even if you get away from something/someone the emotions can follow you. Everyone owes it to themselves a release from past sorrows. That is my vow to myself. I am letting go. I can see all the good in my life clearer now.

I know I am strong, intelligent, silly, passionate, creative, compassionate, sensitive, etc. I accept all my strengths and all my flaws. Without that I would not be me. I feel myself approaching my future with confidence. Thank God. I am approaching the people I love knowing that they see all the good in me too. That they truly do mean it when they say they love me. Thank God!

I know who I am and I know I'm on the path to being who I want to be.

Thank you to all the incredible people who have always been there for me with all their love, advice, reality checks, laughs, smiles, and so much more.